Paralysed - Ridgphos ficet. Part 3

We'll do it all
everything
on our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

When I awoke, my eyes were watering, his red coat laid on me, his scent once again filling my senses. I tried to tilt my head and found myself able to move a little.  I then tried desperately to wiggle my fingers and they eventually responded. I grabbed his jacket and held it closer, my teary eyes blinking as I scanned the room. I tried to scan the building for life but instead received a shock, my heart pounded in my throat and I suddenly felt very nauseated. If I could look in a mirror I could swear my hair was on ends. I leant over the bed and I looked down, my head spun, I tried to sit up but collapsed off of the bed, landing in a heap on the floor. The blanket tumbled on top of me and the lap behind me fell over, smashing into shards on the ground beside me.
“Ridge!?!” Lalna and Simon both charged in, my heart sunk a little when I realised Lewis was not behind them. I waved at them from under the quilt, clutching at my chest, a dull ache had held there since I tried to scan the room.

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

The blonde walked over and put out his hands, “You think you can walk yet?”  I hadn’t yet tried to move my legs, but I could feel the pins and needles that had been there from being in bed so long. “Uh..yeah” I grabbed his arm, shaking as I put my weight on my feet, I wobbled as I put my left foot forward, ‘I feel like such a child’ continuing the slow process I walked round my bed and to the door way.

I then let go of lalna’s hand and staggered into the kitchen and took a seat. I looked out the window from the kitchen, while Simon prepared some food. “You’ve been out for a while..” He commented as he nibbled on a pork chop. “’Bout 3 days”  I nodded as I stuffed my face, I hadn’t realised how hungry I was till he put the plate before me.

When I was done I sat back, “Thanks Simon.” He nodded and stumbled unceremoniously off the chair that seemed a bit too high up for him. “I’ll go see If I can find Lewis, He’ll be really happy to see you”  I almost jumped off my chair to join him, before thinking better of it and gently get off my seat and following him. “You wouldn’t mind if I went to him instead?”  He shook his head and pointed to the hill, “He should be up there, “Poor bugger hasn’t slept a wink since you passed out”  I nodded and thanked him again before grabbing my coat and walking over to the silhouette on the hill.

I did try to hover on the way there but as soon as I did I dropped back on to the floor feeling weak and useless, the dull throb becoming worse each time I tried.  I gave up about halfway up the hill, breathing heavily as I sat down beside the man. He didn’t even notice me at first, lost in his own thoughts, as always.  I looked at his pale face and saw the bangs under his eyes, his brown hair was a mess and his whole body seemed to be shaking. I pulled off my coat and laid it on him, he almost jumped startled at the sudden touch. “r..Ridge!” He lunged at me and held me tight, and I felt his warm breath through my shirt.  I gently fell back and we laid in the gentle sunlight, he was quickly asleep, and I laid my coat over him to keep him warm, I put my hands behind my head..it was so nice to just lay here, with him.

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

I had watched as the sun set, and as the moon rose, I looked down at the still sleeping man, I gently placed a kiss on his forehead, moving the hair from his face. His eyes gently fluttered open and he rubbed them, ‘Such a cutie’ His blue eyes lit up at the sight of me, and I was lost in them as they twinkled in the moonlight.


All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all